Saturday 20 August 2016

Brain is messy.

20 August 2016,

Everyone hope for live in peace, happy, rich and healthy. I thinking why my life keep on a lot of challenges. God always with us, right? Maybe this is my sins, I need to deserve it. Sometimes, I felt I want to end my life but I want to let my parents happy and give them travel whole world. I always tell myself if I am rich, if I am useful, if I got the power, I don't need to let all bad things happened.

  If your couple don't like your parents or grandparents, they are useless. Old people are hard to handle if they are not listening you. Brain are stuck.

  If someone can teach me, I will do my best and do it well. Unfortunately, I didn't have this kind of teacher. I lack of time, I not a good in time management, I keep on tell myself stop playing my IPad mini, stop FB, stop playing FB. I better do my craft and do my hobby to increase my creativity. College exam, guitar, soon part time job, accompany someone wasting my time.

  However, God let this all happened got his reason. Please tell ourselves that we need to be strong and positive. Don't use mad to solve problem, it make things more worst. I would like to hug people, I don't like a life that always keep on angry and scolding each others. Be a kind heart of us.

Saturday 25 April 2015

25 April 2015

Today I so tired because yesterday I slept at 2 o’clock in the morning… after my breakfast, I read a novel and opened music. While I reading, I don’t know why my mind thinking about him, it’s annoying. I told myself stop thinking, just a friend. I shouldn’t think about guys, I can be single. 
Maybe I less communicate with guys so maybe the feeling will be quite messy. I can be so fast fall in love and also easy to break my heart.

  I wish I can be a lot of characters. I hope I can help everyone in the world who needed help. My biggest hope is my family can live in peace. Other than that, I hope I can earn a lot of money to buy foods, drinks, clothes, etc to people who can’t effort to buy it or another reason. I always think, this world why it become more worst? Where is human heart gone? War, kill animals in a cruel ways, bully all little animal or people… Why they don’t think if they are the one who are the victim?

  I hope I can have people guide me in my life. I know I got a lot of weakness. I need to improve my English and study hard while I young. I want to go orphan, paralyse, old folk house, hospital and other places sing songs along with my guitar if I can play it well and my voice is better. I really hope I can do somethings help this world. Spread our love to people indeed.

  My college life is going soon. I need to face it and I need to study well as I can. I hope I can find someone can guide me in that course. I hope Hotel and Tourism Management won’t be hard like Science course. Each of course got their hard… I hope I can handle well and hope not to be ignore my guitar lesson.


  My conclusion just hope this world won’t be destroy and live in peace. Everyone live in happy and no worried. Stay strong and positive mind.

Wednesday 22 April 2015

Renew Blog

22 April 2015, 0034am

  I deleted my last posted and I want to make my blogger become my diary~

  My school will start soon... I very nervous and scare, I just keep on tell myself : appreciate and study hard no matter how bad I will face, I need to be brave. Hope I can survive well in my college. 2 years half to complete diploma~ I still not yet exam my car license, delayed for 2-3 months... Hmm... Seriously, I'm lazy~ LOL~

  I would like to share something to reader. From the beginning, I met a guy who was like big brother, he more 10 years older than me. He motivated me a lot, he was straight forward person and high self esteem. I know he won't see this blog, but I scare one day he will read it. I very thanks God giving him appeared in my life so that I can learn a lot from him, his good characteristics. I hope I can have him as my step brother. I told one of my closely friend, she said; ignore him, he too over straight forward, it hurting you, stop chat with him. In my mind, ya, he is hurting me but I know he always want me to become good, strong, educate person, and others. I know not just me, his will do to his friends too. Last 2 days, after I worked, I went to 99 supermarket to buy some stuff. When I looking for the colouring and the flavouring essence, he came forward to greet me. In meantime, I get shocked and laugh until I cried. I thought I dreaming. My mind also blanked. We chat few minutes only. This is faith~ Actually I avoid to meet him because of some reason. I also keep on forgot to observe his unique eyes, he got Nystagmus when he born. However I need to treat him well as my brother.

  I tell a little things about myself. I'm patient in front of people but I can't patient in front of my family but mostly I keep calm down. I am a good listener, I think so~ my friends will tell their sadness to me but their happiness not usual to tell me... I will tell my further life story in next blog.

  Good night, my world~